urghhh.
somebody shoot me
this restlessness is killing me.

why cant anyone understand me
i am not desperate to get a boyfriend.
i dont want a boyfriend.
i just want him and only him.
means im not gona replace him with some dude just because i cant get over him.

i know it was so long ago.

but thats just me.

what if i feel that hes the only one for me.
do you think i care whether he still likes me or ignores me or likes some other girl.
okay actually maybe i do.
because love only happens when two people are in love.
but i cant help it.
i am really trying.

i dont mean to be the most posessive ex-girlfriend who spams her exboyfriend's phone when she already has no clue what is going on his life, whether her existence matters to him, whether she should get a life.
unfortunately i am.

unfortunately i am.


i dont care.
i am going to wait.
even if theres a tsunami or h1n1 or god knows what i am going to wait.

the problem is just how to shut up while waiting.

i cant stop complaining.

because life without you, is shit.