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okay i feel better now
lesson no 1
NEVER panic for your papers. NEVER.
lesson no 2
NEVER trust anyone.
lesson no 3
no point loving people who dont love you.
lesson no 4
dont join a cca youre not good in.
lesson no 5.
fuck this.

today was a very productive day for me and eunice! :)
haha she was busy mugging!
like WAHHH.
so yup didnt talk as much as we always do =x

BUT!
we still camwhored as usual :)

eunice and sunflower! :D


POLAR BEAR!!! :D


look at my face! it says ERRR.


HAHA. what more can i say.


the ONE the ONLY teddy bear!!! hahaha


ERRR. haha i dont know how to spell this horse's name. HAHA.


ELMO!!! red lovable elmo :D

Do you feel like a man when you push her around?
Do you feel better now as she falls to the ground?
Well I'll tell you my friend, one day this world's going to end
as your lies crumble down, a new life she has found.

YAY finally bought a cardigan! :D :D :D
ive been wanting one since FOREVER! woots.
i shall save money from now on.
probably even to the point that i have to spend less on FOOD!
OMGZZZ. lol. :O


haha EUNICE being retarded but cute. LOL.


US. opposite a DIFFERENT mirror of a DIFFERENT toilet. HAHA.


*GRINS*


funny face!!!


LOOOVE the couch! :D


YAY camwhoring is fun!



I LOVE EUNICE!
shes my 'play' buddie and also my study buddie and also my smsing buddy!
haha
:)

HOW TO BUILD SELF-CONFIDENCE
It takes dedication to realize you are a good human being that is worthy of respect and love.

1. Recognise your insecurities
- everything?
(basically because there is competition/expectations involved in everything that i do. OR im just too self conscious =x HMMM. i think im afraid to be judged. or rather. I HATE being judged)

2. Talk about it with friends and loved ones.
okay. right now im letting the whole world know about this O.o okay no. just my close friends that read my blog.

3. Remember that no one is perfect.
After sixteen years, I am starting to realise that i am much of a perfectionist.
'Learn that life is full of bumps.'

4. Identify your successes.
Hmm. Doing well in PSLE? HAHA. hmm im good at loving and caring for people :) hmm. i can sing?

5. Be thankful for what you have.
Okay I am very thankful that * **** **** ******** **** *********. Really. *** * **** **** ***** ** **

6. Be positive!
okay frens i need your help in this. If you see me being pessimistic scold me okay! :) THANKS. 'Avoid self-pity' HOHOHO. i do that alot.
'Instead speak positively about yourself, about your future, and about your progress.'

7. Look in the mirror and SMILE!
ooouuu i do that all the time :)

8. FAKE IT
HAHA! okay. if you say so :D

9. Express yourself
I AM!

10. Stick to your principles.
mmhmm. always did.

11. Help others
eunice youre my first victim :)

12. Stop worrying.
HMM. Its not that easy you know.
BUT i am going to do it! :)

JENG JENG JENG. with the help of
http://www.wikihow.com/Build-Self-Confidence

ps. this is a very personal post.
so BE HONOURED. HOHO.

yay i finally finished the first geog topic!
like its about time right =x

i want to buy jacket!
theres a puma sale in tm :)

ps. honestly i want to do well for midyears.
but i cant aim high because i just dont want to be laughed at when the results are out.
=/

all thanks to the blog template im using, i feel like painting my nails black.
lol.

STUDYING WITH EUNICE MAKES ME HAPPY!!!
she makes me SMILE and LAUGH :D
we listen to nice (or thrash :P ) music :D
we talk and talk and talk
and we STUDY STUDY STUDY of course.
she scared me for maths and geog tho. rawrs. lol
oh oh!
and we WALK AND WALK AND WALK!
i finally found cheap clothes for me to buy
:D :D :D
shall ask my mummy to give me money like as soon as exam ends :)

WHEEE

oh and we took pics!

*grins*


:)


EUNICE!!!


she poured like three packets of cream into her coffee!
looks kinda gross dont ya think? :P

Don’t tell me you’re sorry cuz you’re not
Baby when I know you’re only sorry you got caught
But you put on quite a show
You really had me going
But now it’s time to go
Curtain’s finally closing
That was quite a show
Very entertaining
But it’s over now
Go on and take a bow

Things to do for the day:
- finish econs notes! (done)
- start on geog! (done)
- run! (NOT DONE)
- dont go online to chat! (MISSION IMPOSSIBLE)

im going to turn in soon

before that
i want to say HAPPY DADDY'S DAY to all dads in the world! :D
today was a mugger-less and food-full day. hahaha.
and at the back of my daddy's father's day card.
was this.

GRINS.

good night everyone :)

NOTE TO MYSELF:
DATE WITH ELYANA ON 4TH OF JULY :D

When I grow up
I wanna be famous
I wanna be a star
I wanna be in movies

When I grow up
I wanna see the world
Drive nice cars
I wanna have groupies

When I grow up
Be on TV
People know me
Be on magazines

When I grow up
Fresh and clean
Number one chick when I step out on the scene

HAHAHA



right now, THIS is my motivation to study :D
HAHAHA. i want a sports car man.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY ELLE!!!
(sorry i suck because i cant remember birthdates :( boohoohoo)
oh well. hope you had a fun day! :D

so annoyed.
today has been a very annoying day.

the pig has to run soon
like soon soon.

23 JUNE - GP
24 JUNE - H1 GEOG
25 JUNE - H2 ECONS
26 JUNE- H2 MATHS
27 JUNE - H2 LIT

omg geog is my second paper?!
oh man i didnt know O.o
GOOD LUCK to me.

I dont get you.
really.
and i have no time for this!
you just ruined my entire day.
well its my fault too isnt it?
fine whatever.

just pack your bags and leave.

I feel terrible.
This is what happens to every single time i stay at home.
Am i getting worse?
Is it true that I spend every time alone feeling lonely?
I dont know.

perhaps these feelings would change one day.

this is all im gonna say today.
LOL.

fuck im a fat pig.
all i have been doing is
eating
eating
and
eating.

maybe i should go run soon.
like tmrw would be good.
or tonight? hmm. wonder whether my mum will let me.

when will i ever get over you.
like seriously
now would be good.

and i failed.

there was once
i was never like this
NEVER
like this.
please let me remember what i used to be in the past.
i want to be that girl again.
because that is the true me.

let this post be the last mourning.
the last self-pity
the last complain
the last regret

please.
God i beg of you.